Participants: Aaron Chaney (Host), Britney Carter
Series Code: TNJ
Program Code: TNJ000040
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00:01 The following program discusses sensitive issues.
00:03 Parents are cautioned that some material 00:05 may be too candid for younger children. 00:09 Welcome to the New Journey. 00:10 Today, we meet a young woman who transported drugs, 00:13 but now minister the word of God to young people. 00:16 Find out how? Join us on the New Journey. 00:50 Welcome back to the New Journey. 00:51 On today's program, we have Britney Carter with us. 00:55 Welcome, Britney Carter. 00:56 Thank you. It's a pleasure to be here. 00:58 Okay, okay. 01:00 What we want to start with is some general questions. 01:03 First of all how old are you? 01:04 I'm 27 years old. 01:06 Okay and where you from? 01:08 I'm from North Carolina, in between Whitesboro, 01:13 New Jersey and North Carolina, I was raised. 01:14 Okay, okay, okay. 01:17 So, your mother and your father, 01:18 they divorced when they were, when you were young age? 01:21 Yes. 01:23 How did that make you feel internally? 01:24 Oh, man, I felt alone because of the issues 01:30 that they were going through. 01:32 They kind of somewhat neglected my emotion 01:34 or what I had to deal with, with my home being separated. 01:38 So I was sent to North Carolina with my grandmother 01:41 and I was lonely. 01:43 And I really didn't have anybody to play with. 01:45 My brother and sister were still with my parents. 01:47 I was sad, I was confused, I didn't understand 01:50 a lot of things that were happening. 01:52 You know, it's interesting there's a, 01:53 there's a lot of young people that, 01:55 you know, they grow up in homes that 01:57 mothers and fathers have divorced. 01:59 And, you know, they're often left with that 02:02 alone feeling or did I do something wrong. 02:05 Absolutely. To cause my parents to divorce. 02:07 Did you ever have that kind of feeling like 02:09 maybe you were the cause of it? 02:10 Well, no, I never felt like I was the cause 02:12 because we went through a lot as a family 02:17 because of the lifestyle that my parents led. 02:20 So, I had a good understanding 02:22 of why my parents were not together anymore. 02:25 So, I didn't feel the blame, but I was affected by it still. 02:29 Okay, okay. 02:30 Now, your mother and your father, 02:32 they were recreational drug users. 02:33 Yes. 02:35 Do you think that that, that kind of propelled you 02:37 into the lifestyle of selling 02:39 and using drugs later on in life? 02:40 Absolutely. Okay. 02:42 It definitely did because that was what I knew. 02:44 And even though as I grew older I knew it was wrong. 02:47 It was one of those things where you say. 02:50 "Well, I know it's not okay to do this 02:51 but I mean, it's okay to do it." 02:53 You know, I'm gonna do it because that's what I'm used to 02:56 and I know that if I do this, I'm not gonna lack anything. 02:59 What were some of the drugs 03:01 that your mother and father used 03:03 that you would see them using as you were growing up? 03:07 I never saw them with my own eyes using drugs, using them. 03:12 I saw the drugs. It was cocaine and marijuana. 03:17 But, you know, I find it under the bed 03:20 or several times my door was broken down by the police. 03:24 And they'd find it in different places in the house 03:26 or will get pulled over by the cops. 03:29 I'll see my mom like stuffing the diaper bag, 03:32 so she can try to hide it so I saw it, 03:34 but I didn't know until I got older that they were users. 03:37 Okay, so as a young person when you would see 03:38 these police officers knocking down your door, 03:41 did that kind of instilled a fear in you, 03:44 or a little bit unrest of not sure what's going on? 03:47 Definitely, definitely unrest. 03:50 Not really a fear because I mean, 03:52 I didn't understand the consequence at the time. 03:56 So, it was like an uneasy feeling all the time, 03:59 uncomfortable feeling not knowing 04:02 when something big might happen 04:04 because this major to be sitting 04:06 in the living room at home watching a movie. 04:10 You know, everybody is laid out on the floor 04:11 and all of a sudden bam, you know, 04:13 your door is knocked down. 04:15 Door knocked down, police come running in. 04:16 So, it's just like, "Oh, my gosh. 04:18 When is that going to happen again? 04:19 Okay. Is it going to happen again? 04:21 It's scary. You informed me. 04:23 That you had been molested at a young age. 04:26 Talk about that a little bit? 04:30 It started when I was maybe about five years old. 04:34 Okay. 04:35 And we went to visit some family in New York. 04:38 And there was a bunch of us and everybody was on the floor 04:42 with blankets, and pillows, and sleeping 04:44 and I remember waking up to that feeling 04:50 of somebody touching me down there. 04:52 And when I looked up, 04:53 it was actually one of my uncles. 04:56 And he was laying beside me, 04:57 and he was trying to penetrate me 05:00 while I was lying down. 05:01 Now, did that happen repeatedly through life or...? 05:03 From him, that was the only time. 05:06 Okay. 05:07 It happened later when I moved to North Carolina 05:09 after my parents' divorce by my grandmother's husband. 05:13 So, as a young person going through something like that, 05:17 how does that make you feel emotionally? 05:18 Oh, my gosh. 05:20 That's when you feel like what have I done. 05:23 Okay. To cause this to happen to me. 05:25 So, it's kind of like you start to blame yourself for. 05:26 You do, you start to blame yourself 05:28 because you're trying to figure out like what did I do. 05:30 You know, why, why did they decide to do this to me. 05:33 It's a very scary feeling, and living in a lifestyle 05:38 with my parents being, you know, 05:41 drug users and sellers, you see a lot of violence. 05:46 So, it's almost like, you know, I don't want to say anything 05:49 because I'm afraid of what's going to happen 05:51 that you constantly live in fear 05:53 because it destroys your trust for anybody. 05:56 Okay. Okay, that's understandable. 05:58 You know, I've heard many people say that 06:00 they were molested, many females 06:02 molested at a young age. 06:03 And then it's hard to maintain relationships 06:06 with men later on in life 06:09 due to what has happened in the past. 06:11 Has that been kind of your case throughout life or...? 06:15 Not really. Okay. 06:17 I didn't entrust that well. 06:19 I had the same boyfriend from the time 06:21 that I was 14 until I was 25. 06:24 He died in a car accident. 06:28 I didn't have an issue with maintaining the relationship, 06:34 I had an issue with trust. 06:35 Trust, okay. 06:36 And I was constantly worrying, or constantly accusing, 06:41 or constantly blaming, never settled, 06:43 never happy, never at peace. 06:46 You know, the trust was just not there 06:48 along with several other things 06:49 that happened throughout the years following that. 06:53 That's understandable. 06:54 Now, you told me that your mother 06:56 was eventually in a car accident. 06:58 Yes. And it left her blind. 07:00 It did. 07:01 How did that affect your life when that happened? 07:04 That actually pulled me closer to God. 07:07 Okay. 07:08 I want to say, I was maybe about nine or ten years old. 07:12 I want to say, I was nine, it was about a year after her, 07:15 my mom, her and my, father divorced. 07:17 Okay. 07:18 And I didn't know what happened at first, 07:21 it was like a big secret. 07:22 You know, I kept saying, "Gosh! 07:24 Why haven't I heard from my mom, she hasn't called? 07:26 I'm all the way here in North Carolina." 07:29 And the thing that I hope for every day 07:31 was to hear from my mom, so a time spent went 07:33 by where I didn't hear from her for a while. 07:35 And I was like, "Gosh! I wonder what's going on." 07:37 So, I actually had a cousin that said, "Yeah, 07:40 your mom was in the car accident, she's blind." 07:42 I'm like, "No, she's not." 07:44 And I remember getting so angry and so mad 07:45 because he said that, 07:47 but then my grandmother broke down 07:48 and she told me the truth. 07:50 And she said that she was in the accident. 07:51 The airbag burst and it broke the glass in her frames, 07:57 and it went into her eyes. 07:58 So the glass shattered into her eyes. 08:00 The glass shattered into her eyes 08:01 and they said that she would never be able to see again. 08:03 And from that point on is where I remember learning 08:07 how to pray every day. 08:08 Okay. Like that became my thing. 08:10 You know, I went to church sometimes 08:12 but it was like day, morning, noon, night, 08:17 you know, while I'm in school, 08:18 I was constantly thinking about it. 08:20 And it was like just talking to God all day every day. 08:23 Okay, now, you eventually got into drugs 08:26 like your mother and father used drugs 08:28 when you were younger. 08:29 At what age did you kind of 08:31 become involved with using drugs? 08:32 Fourteen. Okay. 08:34 And I know for most folks that use drugs, 08:37 it's generally at a young age. 08:38 I know for myself, I started when I was about 15 years old 08:42 and, you know, it's kind of like this downhill spiral. 08:45 So, at 14 you started using drugs. 08:47 What were some of those drugs you were involved with? 08:49 The only drug I used was marijuana. 08:52 Okay. 08:53 And I don't want to simplify that, 08:54 because that was quite too much, is it? 08:58 Marijuana is being a simplified, 08:59 but it is an issue and it was an addiction for me. 09:02 Okay. Yes. 09:03 Now you eventually got into transporting drugs 09:07 with your then boyfriend. 09:08 How did all of that transpire? 09:10 Well, he grew up pretty much 09:13 in the same lifestyle that I did. 09:14 Okay. 09:16 So, that was what he did, when he got to a age 09:20 of being able to move around by himself. 09:23 And I was his girlfriend. Okay. 09:26 And that's what we did. 09:27 You know, I tried to look out for him. 09:30 I wanted to protect him in any way shape or form. 09:33 And anybody that lives in that kind of lifestyle 09:36 knows that, it's like a line of loyalty and trust. 09:39 So, because we're together, I trust you, 09:43 I don't trust anybody else. I need you to do this for me. 09:46 And I was comfortable with it, because I saw my mom do it, 09:51 you know, my whole childhood. 09:53 So, I was like, this is what I'm supposed to do. 09:55 Yeah. Okay, okay. 09:57 I know for myself. 09:58 I got into transporting drugs 10:00 and I was transporting marijuana 10:02 from Texas to North Carolina years ago. 10:06 And, you know, you see, 10:08 you see this big reward out of it. 10:09 You know, you're moving on this way, 10:11 and you know you get all this money 10:12 and stuff like that. 10:14 So, I imagine it that you were seeing lots of money 10:16 in transporting these drugs. 10:18 Yes. Okay. 10:19 We saw lots of money. 10:20 It was so bad to the point where you start finding money 10:23 you didn't even know you had. 10:25 You know, like we were moving from one place. 10:28 A couple of years after that 10:29 and we were going through our clothes 10:31 and we found like a couple of bundles of $1000 10:34 in our clothes and stuff and it was nothing. 10:36 Okay. Okay. You know. 10:37 What were some of the drugs that you were transporting? 10:41 We were transporting cocaine and crack. 10:46 Cocaine and crack, okay. Crack form. 10:47 Okay, yes, I know you're making a lot of money doing that. 10:51 It does carry a lot of money. 10:53 Does carry a lot of time behind it also. 10:56 For myself, I transported marijuana. 10:58 And, you know, the reward monetarily isn't as great 11:01 or is fast as cocaine but it still is a great reward. 11:07 But there was always something that was in your head, 11:09 even when you were out there selling drugs, using drugs, 11:13 on various relationships and all, 11:15 there was always this voice in your head. 11:16 Tell me about this voice in your head? 11:19 This voice was with me from the time 11:22 I can remember about two years old. 11:23 Okay. 11:25 And at every pressure, any circumstance 11:30 where I felt a lot of pressure, the voice was louder. 11:33 You know, it was, "I'm there, you're gonna be okay, 11:38 I'm gonna protect you or you know, 11:41 just stay calm or just relax." 11:43 But when I got into doing things like transporting drugs, 11:48 the voice would say to me, 11:50 you know, you know you shouldn't do this. 11:52 Or this isn't the way for you to do it. 11:55 If you just trust me or if you just do 11:57 what I ask you to do, you know, you would be a lot happier. 12:01 And I'm just like, I never saw it. 12:03 Okay. I couldn't get the vision. 12:05 Like this was my life, this is what I was used to, 12:08 so how could I listen to this voice trying to tell me 12:11 I would be happier doing something 12:13 that I have never done before, you know. 12:15 Yeah, yeah. You know it's interesting. 12:17 You told me that you were eventually 12:19 put on depression medicine. 12:22 What were you put? 12:24 Why were you put on depression medicine? 12:26 Anger. Anger, okay. 12:28 Yes, I had a lot of built up anger. 12:30 Okay, now what was the anger towards? 12:33 Oh, man, the anger was, it was towards my mother. 12:35 Okay. It was towards my father. 12:38 It was towards God. Okay. 12:40 It was towards my boyfriend at the time. 12:44 There was a lot of cheating, 12:46 a lot of lying and a lot of being left alone, 12:48 because every time I would face serious situations in my life, 12:52 it would come back to me being by myself. 12:54 Okay. 12:55 And that's what it was, so I would lash out. 12:58 Hurl, scream, howl or throw things. 13:00 I remember breaking windows in my house. 13:02 I remember running hitting him with a car. 13:05 You know like, I was blessed that God covered us 13:08 to the fact that neither one of us 13:09 were seriously injured by the behavior 13:12 that was going on in the relationship. 13:14 But I was like losing my mind. Okay, okay. 13:18 And that's understandable. 13:19 You know, the various things that we go through, 13:22 while we're "out there in the streets." 13:25 Lot of built up anger, frustration and all, 13:27 but did you get a inner peace or inner joy from using drugs, 13:33 selling drugs, did it give you that? 13:35 Absolutely not. 13:37 No, no why did it not give that to you? 13:38 It made me more miserable. 13:39 More miserable? I was-- 13:41 It was so bad to where I hid the fact 13:45 that I was smoking marijuana for years. 13:47 Okay. 13:48 But it was bad to where when I woke up in the morning, 13:51 I had to get high throughout the day. 13:53 As soon as my heart would start going down, 13:55 I have to get high again. 13:56 When nighttime come, I have to get high. 13:58 So, I can rest because it was, 14:00 it was like my guilt from that actions 14:03 and the behaviors and I mean, it was so many things 14:07 that I had done from setting up people to be robbed, 14:09 and shooting at people, and beating people over money. 14:13 Transporting these drugs, along with the abuse 14:16 that I had already went through in my childhood, 14:18 I was nowhere near at peace. 14:20 And my thoughts were literally destroying my mind. 14:24 So, I got high and higher and higher, 14:26 then I got more irritable, when I wasn't high 14:29 and more mean, you know, more aggravated. 14:31 And it was like, I had to do it to maintain 14:34 any kind of peace in my head but it just, it never worked. 14:37 So, it never provided any peace. 14:38 You know, many, many young people 14:40 get involved in the drugs, and the fast money, 14:43 and things thinking that is going 14:44 to bring some kind of joy to their lives. 14:46 Right. 14:47 In reality that I found was that the way God created us 14:53 was that we could only find inner joy 14:55 or inner peace through Him. 14:57 You can have the money. You can have the fast cars. 15:00 You can have the drugs and all these things, 15:01 but they won't ever bring that inner satisfaction. 15:05 Because God didn't design us that way. 15:07 Right. 15:08 So, you felt that same exact thing, 15:10 kind of like being trapped in this lifestyle. 15:13 Wanting to get out but not knowing where to go. 15:15 This is what you're used to your entire life. 15:18 Trapped. Okay. 15:19 I felt like there was no way for me to get out of it. 15:23 I was never going to be happy. 15:25 I really felt like the best way for me 15:27 to get out of it was to just kill myself. 15:29 Yeah, okay. 15:30 Now, and we're going to come back to that 15:32 in terms of killing yourself and the thoughts of suicide. 15:35 But if you can, look backing on your life now 15:38 and if you could change certain things in your lifestyle, 15:41 the things that you had to go through, 15:42 the things you got involved in, would you do that 15:45 or would you still take the same path? 15:46 I wouldn't change it. 15:48 You wouldn't change it? No. 15:49 Okay, now let me ask you why would you not change it? 15:50 I would not change it 15:52 because everything that I endured 15:53 and everything I went through made me who I am today. 15:57 And I would not trust God or love God 15:59 or depend on God the way that I do, 16:01 or have such a strong relationship with Him now 16:04 if I had not been faced with so many adversities. 16:07 Okay, now, you told me that you had a debate with God. 16:10 Yes. At one point, you were still-- 16:12 you still out there are using drugs, 16:13 selling drugs things like that. 16:15 But you had a debate with God. Yes. 16:16 Talk to us about the debate you had with God? 16:19 God have been calling me 16:21 and talking to me my whole life. 16:22 Okay. 16:24 I know I strayed way, 16:25 but it's not like I forgot who He was. 16:27 That was that voice that was constantly-- 16:29 That was that voice on my head, 16:30 he wouldn't allow me to forget Him. 16:31 Okay. 16:33 So, I got to a point where I wanted to do 16:35 what I was doing. 16:37 He kept telling me 16:38 that I needed to do something else. 16:40 And we were going back and forth, 16:41 and I was literally screaming outside on the porch. 16:44 I remember screaming, just leave me alone. 16:47 Get out of my head. 16:49 I'm not going to do what you're asking me to do. 16:51 I'm not cut out for this type of lifestyle, 16:53 just leave me alone. 16:54 And so simply he told me, "You either choose the life 16:58 that you're living and die or do what I ask you to do." 17:03 You know, I had that same kind of experience 17:06 especially for me growing up in a Christian household. 17:10 I was trying to run from God for so long, 17:13 and I could literally hear 17:14 the voice of God speaking to me. 17:17 And every time I would hear that voice, 17:19 I would purposely get high. 17:20 Purposely go ahead and snort some cocaine 17:22 or something to try to drown that voice out of my head. 17:26 Looking back on it, I praise the Lord that it didn't work. 17:29 It didn't work. 17:31 Holy Spirit continued to try to woo me and get my attention. 17:35 But you got to the point 17:37 where you were trying to commit suicide. 17:40 Why? 17:41 Even though you were making all this money, 17:43 doing all these different things out there 17:45 why, why were you contemplating suicide? 17:48 Because I was so miserable. 17:49 Okay. I hated myself. 17:52 I wasn't happy when I looked in the mirror. 17:54 My self-esteem was low. 17:56 I was in a relationship where I was very much in love 17:59 but it was just, it was just wrong. 18:05 Okay. On so many different levels. 18:06 I wasn't getting what I needed emotionally. 18:11 I was sad, I was hurt, I was broken, I just was in, 18:17 I was in constant pain everyday like, 18:19 when you're so emotionally torn 18:21 that it physically affects your body. 18:23 That it becomes, 18:27 how would I say comfortable for you to feel like that, 18:30 I had got uncomfortable with hurting 24 hours a day, 18:33 seven days a week. 18:34 Just miserable Yeah. 18:36 And, like I said, I didn't see a way out. 18:39 So, I could say, you know, everybody would keep telling me 18:42 you know, you can do all things through Christ. 18:44 And there's a way, 18:46 there's a light at the end of the tunnel, 18:47 God will bring you through. 18:49 But when you're in sorrow, the way that I was in, 18:51 you can't see it. 18:53 It's like I can't see myself coming out of this. 18:56 So, what can I do to just stop this pain. 18:59 Just stop it all, yeah. 19:00 And the only way I felt like I could stop 19:02 it was if I committed suicide. 19:04 Now, did you, did you ever actually attempt 19:06 or it was just kind of like the thoughts in your head? 19:10 I remember several times, 19:12 sitting up with a bunch of pill saying, 19:15 "I'm gonna do this, I'm gonna do this." 19:18 But never-- it seemed like every time 19:20 that I would get in that kind of situation, 19:22 something would interrupt me. 19:24 Somebody would come by, or somebody would call, 19:26 or something would happen. 19:27 And I remember not the last time, 19:30 but the time before the last time that I thought about it. 19:35 I think I found out I was pregnant like that night. 19:38 Okay. 19:39 So, it was just like, "Oh, my gosh!" 19:43 Wow! Good thing at a bad timing. 19:45 Yeah. Bad timing. 19:47 Yeah. Well, great timing. 19:48 But at the time I was just like. 19:50 What is happening like, it felt like the worst thing 19:53 that could ever happen to me though. 19:54 You know, looking back you got to praise the Lord 19:57 that you thought about suicide, but you never went through it. 20:00 Never went through it. 20:02 You know, I had the same situation, 20:03 you know, how you get stuck in that circle of life. 20:06 And you want a change, you don't know how to change. 20:09 It's like you're trapped physically, mentally, 20:11 everything just trapped. 20:13 And I remember I actually kept trying. 20:16 I had various guns at the time 20:18 where I could have just shot myself in the head. 20:20 And did it, but I felt that that was kind of 20:23 a messy way to go out. 20:24 And what if I do it and I still happen to live. 20:27 Still happen to live. 20:29 So, what I try to do was take as many drugs 20:31 as I could at the time, using cocaine, heroin, ecstasy, 20:35 popping prescription pills, marijuana, alcohol. 20:38 And I thought to myself. 20:40 What if I just take so many drugs at overdose 20:43 and just fall asleep and not wake up. 20:45 I thought it would just be a peaceful way out of this. 20:48 But looking back on and I praise the Lord-- 20:49 That it didn't work. Amen. 20:51 Because where God has me now, 20:52 where God has brought you Britney? 20:54 You know, it's great that it didn't work. 20:56 At what point did you begin to make that transition to God? 21:01 I started when I had my first son. 21:03 I started going to church more, I started praying more, 21:06 and trying to rebuild my relationship with God. 21:10 I wasn't that successful in the beginning 21:13 because there were still some things 21:14 that I was doing like getting high. 21:16 And I struggle with trying to stop. 21:18 So, I guess I was about 20 years old 21:20 when I started trying to rebuild. 21:22 Okay, what were, when you started 21:23 to try to make that change, 21:25 what were some of the biggest obstacles 21:26 that you had to overcome? 21:28 Getting high. Getting high, okay. 21:30 Okay, okay. That was the biggest obstacle. 21:32 Yes, because it was like I needed it. 21:33 Yeah. 21:35 I had already been doing it for so many years, 21:36 so I felt like I needed it to function. 21:39 So, it was the biggest obstacle because like I said, 21:41 I had mood swings, and I would get upset and angry 21:44 when I wasn't getting high, 21:45 so that was definitely the biggest obstacle for me. 21:48 All right, and that's understandable, 21:49 you know, sometimes we get so shackled to the things 21:52 that we love, to the things that we're accustomed to doing, 21:55 that even trying to make that change is very difficult. 21:59 You know, and the Bible says that, 22:00 "We wrestle not against flesh and blood." 22:02 So, it's like, it's a spiritual warfare that's going on, 22:05 even when we want to make this transition 22:08 is sometimes very hard, but you eventually did. 22:10 Yes. You made that transition. 22:12 And then you got into church. 22:14 And you did your first sermon, 22:15 it was entitled "Life after Death." 22:17 Yes. Talk briefly about that? 22:19 Life after Death actually came from the song Life after Death, 22:25 by the rapper Notorious B.I.G. 22:27 And basically what it was, was me giving my testimony 22:31 about my new life after being dead for so long. 22:36 So, everybody knows that. 22:38 You know, to me it's worse to die in the spirit, 22:42 than it is in the flesh. 22:43 And spiritually I was dead, 22:45 so I spoke about being resurrected. 22:47 Okay. 22:49 After God, Jesus picked me up and placed me on my feet 22:53 and got me going for the right direction. 22:56 Praise the Lord. Now, you have-- 22:58 You changed your life, you're in church 23:00 and you have this new contentment, 23:02 this new peace, even though you're not making 23:05 lots of money like before. 23:06 You're not involved in the streets anymore. 23:09 But, how can you explain this containment, 23:12 this peace that you now have, 23:14 even though you're lacking monetarily like from before. 23:18 The best way I can explain it is, 23:21 is the scripture that says, 23:22 "God will keep you in perfect peace." 23:25 And I sing that to myself on a daily basis 23:29 because even though I lack in my finances 23:32 and I'm struggling to try to get back 23:34 on my feet and start my career. 23:37 God has not allowed me to lack anything, 23:40 so for so many years of doing what I was doing 23:43 because I didn't want to lack. 23:45 Now, I'm in a position 23:46 where I don't have to worry about anything. 23:48 He provides everything I need, 23:49 my children don't lack anything. 23:51 You know, we're fed. We have a home. 23:54 you know, I drive a vehicle, and I have gas to put in it. 23:57 And I'm happier than I've been in my whole entire life. 24:01 I'm at peace with who I am, 24:02 I love myself more than I ever have. 24:05 And the love of God is what taught me, 24:07 that there's no greater love than God's love. 24:09 Oh, yeah, oh, yeah. That is very true. 24:10 And He definitely showed me that nobody can love me 24:13 better than He can. 24:14 Oh, yeah, that's right. And that's that perfect love. 24:15 Perfect love, that agape love. Oh, yeah. 24:19 Now, you said you have a point, that you wanted to read, 24:21 and I want you to read this point at this time 24:24 and also the Bible text that you have. 24:27 And, you know, talk to the young people 24:29 that have been in your situation 24:31 who are going through things right now 24:34 and can't seem to find a way out of it. 24:36 Talk to those people right now and read that point. 24:40 Okay, "Response list. 24:43 To the adversity have faced from day to day. 24:46 The pain I still endure from my past mistakes. 24:49 The cries for my children due to void and absence. 24:52 The gossip, the backbiting, the drama and emotion intense. 24:56 Response list. 24:58 To failure and falling, disappointments and discontent, 25:01 to pressure and opinions of need to repent, 25:05 to watchful, hopeful, sinister filled spectators. 25:08 To cynical motives and lack of knowledge behaviors. 25:12 To comments, distrust and lack of loyalty. 25:15 To jealousy, envy, hate, and deceit from she and he. 25:18 Response lists. 25:19 To set attacks from the adversary, chains, 25:22 yokes, walls, darkness and spiritual tearing. 25:25 To close door's hardship and lack in finance. 25:28 Misfortune, setbacks and mindless ignorance. 25:32 To shame, pride and minimizing self-worth. 25:35 To thoughts and emotions used to pierce consistent her. 25:39 To confusion, loneliness, pity and tears. 25:42 To endes torture endure for many, many years. 25:45 Response list. 25:47 Because negativity is not worth my response. 25:50 Because if I respond, I'm taking on a lot. 25:52 Because I choose to live past my past and prosper my life. 25:56 Because I can see past what went wrong 25:57 and be thankful for what is going right. 26:00 Because happiness is no longer what appear tend to be 26:03 because my happiness and my joy lie deep within me. 26:06 Because in the midst of everything, 26:07 peace still remains still. 26:09 Because Christ paid the price and footed the bill. 26:12 Because I know who I am, it's whom I belong, 26:14 because my life has turned into a sweet poem 26:17 for when I was counted out God lifted me up. 26:20 And none of this I consider to be luck 26:23 because I'm more than blessed. 26:24 And my story is just beginning, 26:26 because God has already perfected my living. 26:29 Because He's given me a world of endless possibilities. 26:32 Because everything great already lies within me. 26:36 And I depend on Isaiah, 40:31 26:39 "Because those who wait on the Lord, 26:42 who expect, look for and hope in him 26:44 shall change or know their strength and power. 26:47 They shall lift their wings and mound up 26:49 as eagles mount up to the sun. 26:51 They shall run and not be weary. 26:52 They shall walk and not be faint or become tired." 26:55 So, God didn't say that the weight would be easy, 26:59 the weight is hard, 27:00 but He is definitely a loving God, 27:02 who will lift you up, and mount you up, 27:04 and allow you to prosper and still be successful 27:07 through everything that you go through. 27:09 Oh, yeah, God is good. Amen. 27:10 God is good and if, if more of us 27:12 would just turn to God. 27:14 And let go of the things of the world to realize 27:17 that Satan is just out to destroy us. 27:18 Absolutely. 27:20 There is a peace, a containment that you won't find 27:23 anywhere else except in Jesus Christ. 27:25 Britney, I like to thank you for being on the program. 27:28 Yes. Our time has slipped on by. 27:31 Viewers, we would like to thank you 27:33 for tuning into the New Journey. 27:35 Please be sure to tune in next week 27:38 for another exciting episode of the New Journey. 27:42 God be with you. |
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