Pure Choices

Watching for Daddy’s Truck

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Participants: Michael Carducci (Host), Wayne Johnson

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00:02 The following program discusses sensitive issues.
00:05 Parents are cautioned that some material
00:07 may be too candid for younger children.
00:41 Welcome to Pure Choices.
00:43 My name is Michael Carducci,
00:44 and I'm with Coming Out Ministries.
00:46 Today, it's my delight to interview Wayne Johnson.
00:48 Welcome, Wayne. Thank you.
00:50 Listen, I just want to give a little bit of our history.
00:54 Thirty five years ago,
00:55 when we were very young and with lots of hair.
00:58 I remember, I had like big hair,
01:00 and you had a Jheri curl,
01:02 and we were working in the same hospital together.
01:05 Wayne, you were working on the rehab side,
01:06 and I was working on the psyche side,
01:10 and our dining rooms would meet.
01:11 And so we would see each other every day,
01:13 would say hi.
01:14 And I remember that
01:16 when I finally came out into the gay bars,
01:18 and I remember seeing you there.
01:19 We gave each other this look like
01:21 you don't tell my secret, I won't tell your secret.
01:23 And so for the next 20 years
01:24 we had somewhat of a superficial relationship
01:27 through the bar scene, through friends and parties.
01:29 What was so amazing to me, Wayne, is that at 40 years old,
01:33 when I came out of the gay club,
01:35 and all of a sudden one day I was in church,
01:37 I looked into the pew and there's Wayne Johnson.
01:40 And we gave each other that same look like,
01:41 you don't tell my story, I won't tell yours.
01:44 But what God did is he brought you into my life
01:46 at a time when I needed somebody
01:48 who understood the journey that I'd been on.
01:50 And we had kind of gone through similar paths
01:54 and that God had brought us out of the lifestyle
01:57 just about the same time that he brought us in.
01:59 And so, Wayne, I want to hear your story
02:01 as well as many do our listeners.
02:04 So I just want to start off a little bit.
02:06 Tell me about your early days?
02:08 Well, I--
02:11 a kid growing up, people,
02:14 you know always when they see me, they go,
02:17 "Oh, you look just like your father,
02:18 you know," looking like my father.
02:20 "Oh, you're gonna grow up and be like him, you know."
02:23 But my father was very abusive toward my mother, you know.
02:28 And when people would say that to me
02:32 that I look like my father.
02:33 I have all those thoughts, you know, come to my mind,
02:37 but, you know--
02:38 So what happened like,
02:40 how was that you know that your dad was abusive,
02:43 was it just what people said or--
02:46 No, I actually witnessed,
02:48 you know, him beating on my mom,
02:50 and not only that,
02:52 there was one thing that I witnessed
02:54 that he took a gallon trash can in the room with water
03:00 and then brought it back out that was bloody water.
03:03 You know and I was about five or six years old, you know,
03:07 seeing this, you know.
03:09 And I heard my mother in the room crying, you know,
03:12 and to me that led, you know,
03:15 I don't want to be like my father,
03:17 you know, not in that way, you know.
03:19 So it was in our family, it was a trying time for me
03:25 and then as like, you know, as the years went on, you know,
03:31 as a child I was molested, you know.
03:37 Let's go back just a little bit, Wayne.
03:38 Talk about the truck, I like that story.
03:40 Well, the truck, I remember as the years went on,
03:44 my father we moved into a new neighborhood
03:47 and to a new place.
03:49 And I remember him moving us in.
03:53 And he stayed that night, you know, the truck was--
03:57 I remember the truck so well, it was like a Ford truck,
04:01 mint green you know.
04:03 And so he moved us in, you know, stayed
04:06 and then the next day I thought, you know,
04:09 like Mom, Dad take off, go to work.
04:12 But he left and never came back.
04:15 So as a kid, that night
04:16 I was like standing there looking out of the window,
04:21 waiting for him to come home.
04:24 You know, looking for my dad to come home, you know.
04:27 So he never showed up, so. Yeah.
04:30 So here's a little boy
04:31 who is waiting for his dad to come home.
04:33 And then, something else happened in the neighborhood.
04:35 Can you share?
04:36 Well, during that time, you know, life, you know,
04:39 my life, you know, got out,
04:42 start playing around in the neighborhood,
04:43 made friends, and, you know, stuff like that.
04:47 And so there was a gentleman in the neighborhood,
04:51 you know, he was right there,
04:53 and he was well known in the neighborhood.
04:56 But somehow we were playing ball
04:58 and I remember so well, we lived in a project,
05:02 and he lived in a subdivision, you know.
05:04 So he did his hair in a way
05:07 like lured me away from my friends, you know.
05:12 And I followed him to his house, that's--
05:15 I was eight years old at this time.
05:19 And I don't know for the life of me,
05:22 why I made a choice like that, you know.
05:26 Seem like he was someone in the neighborhood
05:28 that we saw, and I followed him.
05:31 And I was molested there in his home, you know.
05:37 And I...
05:39 it just left me stunned, you know,
05:41 that something like that just happened to me.
05:43 So I...
05:44 It made an impression, right?
05:46 Yes, it made impression on me, that...
05:48 One of the things that I think is important to notice
05:50 that you don't understand
05:52 how you made a choice like that.
05:53 But I think that many times children that are victimized,
05:56 you know by perpetrators and older people, they don't,
05:59 they take a lot of responsibility
06:01 for what happened.
06:02 When you were molested, Wayne, he took something from you.
06:05 And so it wasn't necessarily a choice
06:07 that you consciously made.
06:09 And like you said before you knew it,
06:10 this had happened, right?
06:12 Right. Was that the only time?
06:14 No, it seemed like, it was like a dance bar,
06:21 then it was a babysitter.
06:23 This night, this guy wasn't, my mom normally will ask him,
06:27 you know, my mom was a single mother now
06:29 at this time.
06:31 So she would ask him to watch, you know,
06:33 to watch us while she go to work
06:36 and, but this particular night my mom wasn't at home.
06:40 And I was sitting out on the porch.
06:42 So here come the babysitter, you know.
06:44 He sat there, you know, talking to me, you know.
06:48 And then again it happened again.
06:52 And so, it's just was.
06:56 And I began and ask--
06:57 you know I begin to wonder, you know,
07:00 I wasn't gay or anything, you know,
07:03 before I even knew what the word gay meant.
07:07 So I kept having these encounters, you know.
07:10 And once again I--
07:13 you know, I just had to keep it to myself because, I--
07:17 if I tell Mom, I'm going to get a beating
07:19 like I brought it on myself.
07:22 And then
07:25 it happened with the next door neighbor son.
07:29 You know him also, you know, it's just like and--
07:36 You know something, Wayne,
07:37 I hear you saying a lot of things
07:39 of the voice of the victim.
07:41 You know this wasn't what I chose
07:43 and it just kept happening.
07:45 One of our previous programs
07:46 we talked about the down low culture.
07:48 And it's interesting that you were victimized
07:50 by other males in the neighborhood,
07:52 adult males, kids of your age, kids little bit older than you
07:56 that were sexually taking advantage of you.
07:59 And it was causing you to spiral in this understanding
08:02 or like why is this happening to me.
08:04 I've heard you saying, right? Right, right. True.
08:07 Okay, and so tell me the story about,
08:10 you know, things with your sisters.
08:12 I remember there's a story about the roof,
08:14 would you share that?
08:15 Well, as we, you know, my sisters
08:19 they were two little girls and so they were in school.
08:24 So my mom, she disappeared, you know, then show up.
08:28 Where did she go?
08:31 Like she will stay gone from the house
08:33 for days, weeks, you know.
08:36 So we were left there
08:37 and at this time I was in school,
08:39 you know, about 15 years old.
08:42 So we had electric disconnected, you know.
08:46 And so and I was working at the out to the dog track,
08:52 that's what they called the Seminole County dog track.
08:56 And so and I was a lead out person.
08:58 And so, but I also had doing this time,
09:02 our electric was disconnected, you know.
09:05 So I had to climb up on the roof of the house
09:09 once they cut it,
09:11 because normally they would turn it off from the box.
09:15 But if they know that you're using it.
09:18 They go up on the roof to disconnect the wire.
09:20 Okay.
09:21 So we had no electric,
09:23 so I've made the choice to go on the roof,
09:26 and put the wire back together.
09:28 Who told you how to do that? Nobody.
09:30 You just figured that out on your own.
09:31 I just figured out, I just got up there
09:33 and looked at it, got some black tape,
09:35 went up there to connect it back.
09:38 And so my sisters can take a shower,
09:42 bath in the morning before they take off to school.
09:44 Then I would say, "All right, you got so much time,
09:47 because I need to get back up there to disconnect it
09:50 before I go to school.
09:51 So twice a day, you're on the roof
09:53 to connect the wires and to disconnect them
09:56 so that your sisters can take a shower
09:57 and have electricity to get ready for school
10:00 at 15 years old.
10:01 Yes. Powerful story, Wayne.
10:03 So tell me a little bit more now, now you're an adult,
10:07 and you're 19 years old,
10:08 and somebody special came into your life.
10:11 Yeah, 19 years old, I was working out
10:16 at the Florida Hospital at this time,
10:17 graduated from school, been out for a couple of years.
10:20 And this gentleman
10:26 who became my best friend.
10:29 You were his best man in his wedding, right?
10:31 I was his best man in his wedding.
10:32 Right.
10:34 And so, he came into the cafeteria,
10:36 and I was sitting there in the cafeteria,
10:40 kind of depressed day for me.
10:42 I wasn't feeling good that day,
10:44 and so I say that he saw walking over toward my table.
10:48 You know, Charles Walker Brook
10:50 and so start walking toward the table
10:53 and I went, "Oh boy, here come a Bible worker.
10:58 He come--
11:00 so he sat down just open up everything
11:04 just start opening up the Bible.
11:07 And we started talking and I was asking him questions.
11:11 You know I say, maybe he'll go away
11:13 if he see how much knowledge
11:15 I have about the Bible, you know.
11:18 Were you are raised with God?
11:19 No. Not at all?
11:21 No Christian background in my family.
11:22 Okay.
11:24 And what happened, you know,
11:25 and then I was the one out there
11:28 you know asking the questions,
11:29 and he was answering them just right,
11:32 answering questions, you know.
11:33 Each question that I asked and it was simple,
11:38 you know, understanding.
11:40 And so I says to him, I say,
11:42 "Well, can we start having Bible study tomorrow?"
11:45 I was the one and I went out
11:46 and brought me a little kid Bible.
11:48 They have Bible study with him. Okay.
11:51 So you gave your heart to the Lord.
11:52 Yes.
11:53 And then, tell me what happened after you got baptized?
11:56 After I got baptized,
11:58 I still had this dark secret dealing,
12:02 actually homosexuality, you know,
12:06 and the urge came on so strong till I couldn't control it.
12:13 I just fell right out there into it, you know.
12:16 It was something I was hiding from my friends, you know.
12:19 And I thought by getting baptized,
12:22 it would help the problem.
12:24 Right. You know.
12:26 And I said, good, you know, it's over,
12:27 you know and, but it wasn't over.
12:31 I had to face it head on, you know.
12:34 And as the years went on, you know,
12:39 I fell away from the church
12:43 and about 20 years,
12:47 1999 again the Lord sent Charles back.
12:52 Oh, hang on.
12:54 So there's a lot of years in between,
12:55 we want to kind of address just to make sure
12:57 that people know that that this has been an issue for you.
13:00 And that you know what you're talking about.
13:02 But what was it like being in gay culture,
13:05 that's when we knew each other
13:06 and you know what was that like, Wayne?
13:08 Successful relationships, you know, was it a good time?
13:12 No, it wasn't a good time. Okay.
13:15 I was in bad relationships that got physical and fighting.
13:20 And not only that, you know, my relationship,
13:26 boyfriend running around, you know, he ignored me,
13:30 so I did the same thing, you know.
13:33 I thought this was a life, you know.
13:34 Yeah.
13:36 But it wasn't the life that I wanted.
13:38 Right. You know and so.
13:39 So, Wayne, what happened on your 35th birthday?
13:42 And on my 35th birthday,
13:47 I went to have to be check tested for HIV.
13:52 Okay.
13:54 So I had a test, came back
13:58 and my results that I was HIV positive.
14:02 And you got those results
14:03 actually on your birthday, isn't that right?
14:05 Yeah. Yeah.
14:06 Wow, what a terrible birthday present.
14:09 Yeah. So. Yeah.
14:10 You know, Wayne, we lost a friend,
14:11 a lot of friends to AIDS, didn't we?
14:13 Yeah.
14:14 You know beginning, I came out in 1981 when AIDS was,
14:17 you know, first on the scene.
14:18 And we watched men drop like flies.
14:20 Right. Right. Right. Yeah, during that time.
14:22 And so, Wayne, at 35, you know, you find out this news,
14:25 now you're living with HIV.
14:27 And you work in and, you know, going through the motions,
14:31 and tell me now
14:33 about how things were pretty dark for you, right?
14:37 Yeah, things got pretty dark,
14:39 because during that time when I find--
14:42 when I found out about it, I just got--
14:46 I say, you know, I'm not going to make it anyway.
14:49 So I start spending money, you know.
14:53 Going, traveling, you know, going, partying.
14:57 And, but I still,
15:00 I was getting more and more depressed.
15:02 Okay. Till I just watch you know.
15:06 And I became so depressed that I wanted out so bad,
15:11 you know, and I say,
15:13 this is not helping me, you know, so.
15:16 I'm HIV positive, so but--
15:19 There was a gun in your home, right?
15:21 There was a gun, I had a 357 magnum.
15:24 And I thought about killing myself,
15:27 and so but.
15:30 Also I had--
15:32 because I'm dealing with,
15:33 you know, I got to tell my family.
15:35 Let them know, you know, and that,
15:38 you know, that I'm in this lifestyle.
15:40 So living a gay lifestyle and so I'm HIV, you know.
15:45 Yeah. It really came close to home.
15:47 So Charles called you. Yeah.
15:49 So I was on the way out to work,
15:52 going to work.
15:53 I was sitting at my desk in my house.
15:56 And I was doing, by the phone, so I was actually at this time
16:01 I started keeping a little dairy
16:02 asking God to help me.
16:04 Lord, take me to a safer harbor.
16:07 If I hear a song or something come to my ear,
16:10 anything that was dealing with God to bring me back,
16:13 you know, to help me.
16:14 I believe God was hearing that prayer, don't you think?
16:17 I believe He was. Yeah.
16:18 I truly, because and during this time,
16:20 I was getting ready for work that day,
16:23 and so, I walked out of house, locking it,
16:28 getting ready to put my key in a lock.
16:30 And all of a sudden, I stop, you know,
16:32 I heard the phone ringing.
16:34 And I said, well, I'm just gonna go to work.
16:36 But I'm standing there, something said,
16:39 go back in the house and answer the phone.
16:41 A voice, and a voice--
16:43 go back and answer the phone.
16:44 Who was on the phone, Wayne? It was Charles.
16:47 And what did you confess to him?
16:49 After I was--
16:52 I confessed to him, that I said,
16:54 "Charles, I have something to tell you," you know.
16:57 He went, "You know, I haven't heard from you,
16:58 you know, in a while, Wayne," you know and so.
17:02 And I told him, you know, I say,
17:04 "I'm gay and I'm HIV positive."
17:07 And so, the most beautiful thing he could say to me
17:12 was that he says, "Wayne, you know something,"
17:18 he says "Jesus can take care of that."
17:19 That's right.
17:21 He said come and go to church with me
17:22 and my family this Sabbath.
17:24 And I just cried when I got off the phone, and--
17:28 Because you thought, he would reject you.
17:29 I was expecting for rejection from him.
17:33 You know, that he didn't want anything to do with me,
17:36 you know.
17:37 So but, God sent him back,
17:40 and I was able to release the depression
17:44 what I was depressed about, to get it off my chest.
17:48 And it just, and I can see
17:50 the light of Jesus coming back in my life
17:53 from that day on, you know.
17:56 And it gave me hope again. Yes.
17:59 Because, and I thought, I say, and I don't know how,
18:02 remember how he got my number,
18:05 but, you know, it's just like 20 years later
18:08 Charles called me, you know.
18:09 I haven't seen him in years,
18:10 because I avoided him and his wife,
18:14 you know, because I was in their life, you know.
18:18 I had went out, you know, and I--
18:23 that brought me back.
18:25 So, Wayne, was it an easy transition
18:27 like after that phone call, it's all no more problem,
18:30 I'm not gay anymore, you know, it's all said and done.
18:33 Where there's still struggles going on in your life?
18:36 Yes, yes. Okay.
18:37 Yes, yes. All right.
18:38 It was still struggles going on in my life so.
18:41 It was like trying to get out of the life,
18:45 get away from it, you know.
18:46 Yeah.
18:48 And so it was--
18:50 I made a decision to be baptized again so.
18:55 And I still was--
18:56 I had, you know, it wasn't as easy as I thought.
18:59 No.
19:01 So I would call Charles and talk to him, you know,
19:03 Charles, I'm still fighting it, you know.
19:06 And, you know, I just went out,
19:09 and so, there were times I would fall and go back
19:15 and, but I would come home crying to myself,
19:20 driving home crying, because I went there, you know.
19:24 Yeah. Right. Somewhere I didn't want to go.
19:26 And I will fall on my knees and I just kept praying to God.
19:29 I say, you got to take this away from me.
19:31 I don't want to be out to this bar.
19:33 I don't want to be out,
19:35 you know, in this life like this God.
19:38 I say, please help me.
19:41 And so, Wayne,
19:42 this is about the time when we met again.
19:44 And I know for me, you were a huge support
19:48 and the Holy Spirit was using you in incredible ways
19:50 to speak to me, and to give me truth,
19:53 when I didn't want truth, remember.
19:55 Tell me a lie, you know,
19:56 just tell me I can keep my boyfriend and my identity.
19:58 And you were the voice of reason,
20:00 and the voice of the Holy Spirit
20:01 many times to me,
20:03 to tell me what truth was and to help me.
20:05 Thank you.
20:07 You helped me so many times, you know.
20:08 We just hang out together on Sabbath afternoon.
20:10 And we actually ended up meeting another young man
20:13 that was in gay culture that left his boyfriend
20:16 and we became like the Three Musketeers.
20:18 Yes.
20:19 We had a lot of really good,
20:21 you know, spiritual times together.
20:23 And so, eventually I moved to Tennessee.
20:24 And we were somewhat distant, but still in touch.
20:28 And then, several years later
20:31 something else happened when you came to visit.
20:33 Can you talk about that a little bit?
20:35 Well, several years later when I came down to visit you,
20:39 to visit, it was a more, we were walking.
20:43 Yeah.
20:44 The first time--
20:45 so that was my second visit.
20:47 You know, I was dragging you up that hill.
20:48 Yeah, and I was able to make it up to hill.
20:50 That's right. Yeah. And I was getting there.
20:51 But it seems some time that during that time
20:54 when I came back the second time.
20:55 Yeah. Something was wrong.
20:57 Yeah I noticed, your walk was different.
20:59 Yeah, you noticed my mobility.
21:02 And you said, "Wayne, I'm not trying to be funny,
21:05 but I think you may have Parkinson."
21:07 Okay.
21:08 But at that time I guess, I wasn't--
21:12 I knew there was something wrong
21:13 because I thought, I just was tired from work.
21:16 You know tired from working.
21:18 And, but when I got back home,
21:21 that's when I consulted with my doctor.
21:24 And I call you and tell you, I said,
21:26 "Mike, it's Parkinson."
21:28 Yeah, yeah.
21:29 The MRI came back, the doctor diagnosed me
21:33 as having a mild case of the Parkinson.
21:36 But I felt like it was worse than that, you know.
21:39 He was right about one thing, but wrong about...
21:43 because I was--
21:45 my mobility and my left side was getting worse,
21:49 my leg start dragging.
21:51 And I thought, you know, I have--
21:57 and I just put it in God's hand at that time.
22:00 Okay, all right. Come on.
22:01 I say, Lord, let Your will be done,
22:04 but I say, I got to stick with Jesus,
22:06 there's nowhere else for me to go.
22:07 Nowhere else.
22:09 And so I say, I have HIV, I have Parkinson,
22:13 but God has brought me this far,
22:15 He can't let me down now.
22:16 That's right. That's right.
22:17 So, Wayne, you made a powerful decision.
22:19 Somebody's been born and raised in Florida,
22:22 you knew nothing else,
22:23 and then all of a sudden you decided
22:25 that you needed to move to the country.
22:26 Yes, I moved to Tennessee.
22:28 All right. Finally moved there.
22:32 Mike said, Wayne, come and live with me,
22:37 and till you get screened out, you know.
22:40 And so, after I got to Tennessee,
22:41 I went to M.E.E.T.
22:43 Ministry for about 18 days of detox, you know.
22:47 Have everything, my body and everything.
22:50 It was a healing time for me,
22:52 because God just moved in such a way, you know.
22:56 I got the medic care that I needed,
22:59 the help that I needed, and everything just open up
23:05 that came through my disability.
23:08 People say, you have to wait two years.
23:11 But I said, not if God has says,
23:14 God has the last word.
23:16 And I only waited a couple months and got it.
23:18 Perfect, you know,
23:20 and so how God took care of me up there,
23:22 you know, even though I was--
23:25 I just stepped out on faith.
23:27 I said, "Lord, I have no job, nobody won't hire me,
23:30 because of my disability now."
23:31 And my tremors got worse, which you saw that,
23:35 you know, until I got the help.
23:38 But you know what else I saw, Wayne, is,
23:41 you know we've had some pretty open,
23:43 you know, conversations through the years.
23:45 I remember, there was one time, you had some other friends
23:49 that were in different stages of their experience,
23:52 and also the history of homosexuality.
23:54 And there was one Sabbath afternoon,
23:55 we were sitting in my living room,
23:57 and we were watching a videotape of this,
24:00 this brother that had come out of homosexuality,
24:02 remember that?
24:03 And there were probably six or seven of us
24:06 sitting in that circle.
24:07 And that was a first time
24:09 that I had heard a story about somebody,
24:10 that it actually walked out
24:12 or walked away from homosexuality.
24:14 And what was so amazing to me is,
24:16 there were tears coming down my face,
24:17 because I didn't think it was possible.
24:19 I didn't even, I wasn't even interested.
24:21 And as I saw this brother,
24:23 that had lived as a woman for year and a half,
24:25 was about to have a sex change
24:27 and then is redeemed by God, you know.
24:29 As we're sitting in that circle,
24:30 that was a first time I realize
24:32 that if God could do it for him,
24:34 then maybe he could do it for me.
24:36 And I remember that, we had this circle,
24:38 what was so beautiful is that,
24:40 we were all in different understanding.
24:41 Some people were looking for a monogamous relationship.
24:44 Others were looking to come out.
24:45 I was just plain, sitting there just...
24:48 I had no idea what God had.
24:49 And you know what, that began that journey for me
24:52 realizing that God had much more in store for me
24:54 than I could imagine for myself.
24:56 And you know, Wayne, you were part of that,
24:58 I remember, you know, you used to work out a lot,
25:00 and you had big muscles,
25:01 and you would come over in tank top and shorts,
25:04 and there was one brother that just couldn't stop looking.
25:06 And we pulled you aside and we said,
25:07 "Wayne, you got to cover up.
25:09 You got to cover up those muscles, you know,
25:11 because you're really causing this brother
25:13 to really struggle."
25:14 And that was when I was also convicted
25:16 about covering my body.
25:18 You know, the Bible says
25:19 that we're holy vessel to God, isn't that right?
25:21 Right.
25:22 And you know, you said that, and I say,
25:27 "No, I'm not here for that,
25:29 I just got to cover up, you know."
25:31 I start covering up, because I fully--
25:34 I didn't believe, I said, "No,
25:37 I wasn't born gay and I'm not gay."
25:38 So. That's right. That's right.
25:40 I'm not a gay Christian, you know, so.
25:42 So, Wayne, I want to conclude,
25:43 and I want you to tell me quickly
25:45 about how things ended with your father.
25:47 He'd been out of your life, most of your life,
25:49 and then all of a sudden he was very sick
25:51 and you had an opportunity to make amends.
25:54 The most beautiful moment for me with my father
25:56 was that he got--
26:00 he was very sick,
26:01 he had brain tumors on his brain,
26:03 when we found, when we finally got him into the hospital.
26:06 And that I gave him a bath in the hospital,
26:10 and that was closest I ever felt to him.
26:12 The healing and forgiveness right there
26:15 came for me and him.
26:18 Because I was able to touch my father
26:21 and it took me back, if I was that little boy,
26:25 I never had the experience of my father picking me up,
26:29 holding me, or you know like fathers do.
26:32 But during that time, I just had that vision,
26:35 there I was.
26:36 My dad, and, but I'm touching him,
26:38 giving him the bath, you know.
26:40 Yeah.
26:41 As he there on his sick bed, and I just--
26:45 it was, I just felt so much peace
26:48 and so much release, you know,
26:51 relief in my life at that time, you know.
26:55 And my...
26:56 Talk to me about the forgiveness.
26:59 The forgiveness?
27:00 I think that's so important for our listeners to know.
27:02 The forgiveness came, you know, I had no,
27:06 I wasn't angry about with him
27:09 about the way my life turned out.
27:11 I wasn't upset, but I--
27:13 but when the forgiveness came for me at that time.
27:17 So much peace from God that I may--
27:21 to forgive him so, it brought me healing
27:25 in order to have that from him.
27:26 Powerful.
27:28 Wayne, that's so powerful.
27:30 This is why I felt it's so important
27:32 to share your story with Coming Out Ministries.
27:34 And this is your fourth time
27:36 that you've given your testimony in public.
27:38 Wayne's a very private person,
27:40 and so to have you share that story
27:42 and to talk about the full picture
27:43 of your father's little child.
27:45 And then coming all the way to the end
27:47 and finding forgiveness
27:49 even though your father wasn't a part of your life
27:51 during that time.
27:52 Isn't God amazing
27:54 how He gives us those opportunities
27:55 to find that healing in those situations.
28:01 Come back and join us again for Pure Choices.
28:03 Thank you.


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