Pure Choices

Sexual Dreams

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Participants: Ron Woolsey (Host), Mike Carducci

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00:41 Welcome to "Pure Choices."
00:43 I am Pastor Ron Woolsey and with me today
00:46 is my colleague in Coming out Ministries,
00:49 Mike Carducci. Welcome, Mike.
00:51 Hey, Ron.
00:52 We're going to talk about a subject that to me
00:54 is fascinating today and that is about dreams.
00:58 Actually this specific subject will be about sexual dreams.
01:03 But, you know, in the Bible, we see many instances
01:05 where God has spoken to His people through dreams.
01:08 And I'm sure we all have many experiences of dreams
01:13 and nightmares, inspiring dreams,
01:16 troubling dreams and so forth.
01:18 I know in my family...
01:21 If my wife and children watch this program
01:23 and I'm sure that they will be watching this program.
01:26 They are going to really have a laugh
01:28 that I'm the one hosting this program on dreams
01:31 because I'm known in my family for having wild bizarre dreams.
01:37 Before I came to the Lord, I believe the Lord visited me
01:42 repeatedly with recurring nightmare of living through
01:44 the coming of Jesus as a lost person.
01:47 And, and He used that to help me come to Him.
01:50 In fact, since I've become a Christian,
01:52 Mike, in 21 years I have never had that dream
01:54 or anything like it.
01:56 But I do continue to have some pretty wild bizarre,
01:59 just crazy dreams that leave me laughing in the morning
02:02 or I tell my family about them and they get real tickle.
02:05 In fact, they remember them better than I do.
02:08 But, the question we're going to look at today is...
02:12 I mean, we know that the Lord visits His people
02:14 and works through dreams in all kinds of ways.
02:17 He will do anything to reach His people
02:19 or to reach someone He is seeking to save.
02:22 But is it possible that there are other spiritual forces
02:26 that can use that same medium, what do you think, Mike?
02:30 I definitely have had experiences,
02:34 you know, where I believed that I've had to question,
02:37 you know, what the, what the force was
02:40 behind some of the dreams that I've had.
02:42 You know, like you, Ron, I have incredible dreams.
02:44 And I don't know if it's because I'm a hairdresser
02:47 and I tend to be, you know,
02:48 very far outside the box a lot of times.
02:50 But what I've noticed is I had dreams like,
02:54 like you've had before where the Lord is coming
02:57 and I wake up with this panic, you know, is my heart ready?
03:00 And I can see that those definitely
03:02 have a spiritual emphasis to them
03:05 and they are designed to,
03:06 you know, bring me to conviction,
03:08 bring me to conversion and repentance.
03:11 However, a few years ago as I was gaining the victory
03:16 over pornography and masturbation...
03:20 Well, let me go back just a little bit more.
03:22 What was incredible is when, again, when I got baptized,
03:26 I was still in sexual addiction
03:28 and in a relationship with the boyfriend.
03:30 And as God was bringing me on that journey,
03:33 the cycle of masturbation had begun when I was 13 years old.
03:37 And so it was so strong in my life
03:39 and I've definitely read some shocking quotes
03:43 in testimonies on sexual behavior and divorce.
03:48 They talk about how, you know, this vile habit
03:51 and how it not only destroys the mind
03:53 but also destroys the body and destroys the spirit.
03:56 And so I was struggling
03:57 with some of those quotes that I have read
04:00 and as I was learning the process
04:02 that it wasn't a work that I could do
04:04 because I could never gain
04:06 the victory over that, that habit.
04:07 That I recognized that what I had to do is start
04:09 to submit that to Jesus Christ.
04:12 And, and I think the good thing out of that is I had to learn,
04:17 that I had to breathe in the Holy Spirit
04:19 like I breath air.
04:21 I didn't have the luxury of just praying in the morning
04:23 and asking God to give me strength
04:25 and that I would make it through the day
04:27 and at night I would be, you know, okay.
04:29 I had to recognize that sometimes
04:31 even then in the midst of while I was praying that,
04:33 that habit would actually come into my mind,
04:35 the thought of it and sometimes I would actually stop praying
04:38 to indulge that behavior.
04:40 I felt absolutely out of control,
04:42 but as I learned to start surrendering
04:45 and learned that when temptation comes,
04:47 if I submit it and surrender it up to the Lord,
04:49 He would take it.
04:50 And what I would get is the strength
04:52 that would give me the victory.
04:53 And so, when I had started really realizing
04:58 how that process was working.
05:00 For the first time in my life, in my 40s,
05:03 I started to gain the victory
05:04 over masturbation and pornography.
05:05 Oh, praise the Lord for that.
05:07 Amazing, Ron. I didn't think it was possible.
05:11 And then when I did experience it,
05:13 all of a sudden it was like, it was like,
05:16 you know, the fantasy and the attraction to man
05:19 and to women was completely gone,
05:21 nine months of sobriety in that area.
05:24 And one day, Ron, I just tested faith.
05:27 And I wondered if history and memory were still intact.
05:31 And as I went down that road, it opened up a Pandora's box
05:35 if you would of this flood that was worse than the first.
05:39 It was, it wasn't the frequency so much as it was.
05:42 It would just overtake me in a moment
05:44 and I might go a couple of weeks or maybe even a month
05:47 and then all of a sudden, it would hit again and...
05:49 So are you... Excuse me.
05:50 But are you suggesting or saying
05:52 that then you relapsed or you're talking about
05:54 relapsing back after all of that time of sobriety
05:58 that you relapsed back into it?
06:00 You say you were just testing to see...
06:03 Well, I didn't have thoughts that were sexual.
06:06 It was like God had completely closed the valve
06:09 to all of that temptation that was coming to me.
06:12 And after nine months of not having any temptation at all,
06:16 I, I made the foolish decision
06:19 to see if my memory was still intact.
06:22 Even the memories of what I lived for 20 years
06:24 in the gay lifestyle seemed to be completely shutout.
06:27 So that's interesting after that period of time of victory,
06:32 that even without temptation,
06:34 you chose to dabble or chose to experiment
06:38 and so you brought it back upon yourself.
06:40 Is that what you're saying?
06:41 Am I understanding it correctly?
06:43 Wasn't that a temptation, Ron?
06:44 You know, if the thought in my mind came.
06:46 Hey, why am I not sexual at all?
06:48 So that definitely was a temptation,
06:50 but that brought in the flood of.
06:52 Right, you opened the door that had been closed.
06:54 Yes. You made a purposeful choice.
06:58 Yes, that would be a temptation,
07:00 but it probably was not recognized as a temptation.
07:03 It was not something you were battling all the time anymore.
07:06 You just decided, I wonder... Ron, I wasn't battling at all.
07:10 I want to make that distinction
07:11 because I wasn't battling at all.
07:13 And that's when, you know,
07:15 again still to have that kind of victory,
07:17 you know, how sad that I wasn't relishing in the victory,
07:20 you know, that the old flesh was still coming up
07:22 and saying "Well, does that mean you're not sexual at all?"
07:25 And those thoughts again create the self interest
07:28 which I believe started the, the disconnect.
07:31 That brings to my mind the text about Paul saying,
07:33 talking about how he must die.
07:36 He must die daily, lest he himself become a castaway.
07:39 While he's turning the world upside down with the gospel,
07:42 he himself could still be a castaway.
07:44 So he goes back to that daily dying, doesn't he?
07:47 Right. Right.
07:48 So then what happened?
07:50 After that, you said it opened the flood gates.
07:53 Let's elaborate on that. Yes. And so even being,
07:56 you know, a member of my church
07:58 and being in good standing in the church,
08:00 you know, the conviction and the guilt of what I was,
08:04 what was overtaking me...
08:06 Again I was in a position
08:07 that I felt like I was in as a young teen,
08:10 like struggling with this thing inside.
08:12 And, and while I wasn't involving
08:15 other people in this activity,
08:17 I still knew how vile it was by some of the quotes
08:20 that I read, you know, from Ministry of Healing
08:23 and even from the Bible.
08:24 And so as I struggle to really gain control of this again
08:28 and I had to recognize that again
08:32 I was in a worst place than I was to begin with,
08:35 like God had shut that off.
08:37 And so now, I was going through the process again.
08:39 What I had to recognize is,
08:40 I had to absolutely come to Jesus as I was
08:44 even without the opportunity to clean myself up.
08:47 I had to come to Jesus
08:48 and absolutely say, Lord, look at me.
08:51 Look at what a mess I am.
08:52 I'm filthy, I'm disgusting. How can you even take me?
08:56 And even Satan would put these thoughts in my head
08:59 that I had gone passed the limits of God's mercy.
09:02 And when I would open up the word
09:04 and especially like in Steps of Christ,
09:07 page 37, it says, "Do not wait to feel
09:10 that you are made whole, but say I believe it.
09:13 It is so not because I feel it, but because God has promised."
09:17 And simple promises like that, I was able to claim
09:20 and it would reconnect me to the Lord.
09:22 And so again, I had to go through
09:23 the process all over again,
09:25 only this time with the guilt and remorse that I had,
09:28 had that freedom
09:29 and now this door had opened up again.
09:33 And so what was beautiful is,
09:34 in my church I had made two comments
09:37 at different times that I come from sexual addiction.
09:41 The sad part was is, in my church
09:43 there were no resources for anyone
09:46 to find a safe place to admit
09:48 that they were struggling with sexual sin.
09:50 Two men that are in my church,
09:54 they had come forward to me privately
09:57 and they had said, Mike, you know I'm struggling
09:58 with pornography addiction and my wife found out
10:01 and she wants to get a divorce.
10:02 Can you help me?
10:04 And the desperation of seeing, you know, this man come to me
10:08 with this problem
10:09 and here he was a leader in the community.
10:12 He wasn't just, you know, somebody who was,
10:14 you know, a derelict of society if you would.
10:17 And then another man came to me who was a deacon in the church
10:20 that had struggled with it for 35 years
10:22 and it hurt me say that same comment.
10:25 And the exact same scenario,
10:27 you know, same restaurant, the same table
10:28 and sadly enough the same issue.
10:31 And when he told me that he also struggled with it,
10:33 we began a support group in my home.
10:37 And we used Ministry of Healing as the textbook.
10:39 And as we used Ministry of Healing,
10:41 each page talked about the goodness of the Savior.
10:44 It talked about how Jesus came
10:46 to heal men in mind, body and spirit.
10:50 And that the same Jesus that came 2,000 years ago
10:52 that never healed anyone halfway,
10:54 it's the same Jesus today that wants to heal us completely.
10:58 So as I started to read this, this textbook if you would.
11:02 I started to gain the victory and authenticity by being open
11:06 and having accountability partners with these two men
11:09 as I was their accountability partner.
11:11 So what began then is, once I got the victory
11:14 again over the pornography and masturbation,
11:17 what happened is I started to have these homoerotic dreams
11:21 and I was out of control.
11:23 I would have as many as, as three in an evening.
11:26 So now Satan is taking advantage of a door
11:30 that you had opened and He is being persistent.
11:34 I'm saying Satan because it sounds like
11:36 something that was coming from him.
11:38 And so now he is attacking you through dreams,
11:41 is that what I'm hearing?
11:43 And can you explain what you mean by homoerotic dreams?
11:46 Right.
11:47 When they started, again you know,
11:50 being an adult male in my 40s
11:52 to have those kind of dreams again
11:54 and I would have to get up and change my pajamas.
11:57 And sometimes I would have as many as three in an evening,
12:00 but homoerotic meaning that,
12:02 that the dreams were homosexual in nature.
12:04 And they were as so bizarre that sometimes
12:07 it was just body parts in a dream or it was ideas,
12:10 and sometimes it was actual demons that were in the dreams.
12:13 And what was happening is,
12:15 I realized that once I've gotten the physical victory
12:19 over the masturbation, that still,
12:21 that sin originates in the mind, Ron,
12:23 is the best that I can explain it.
12:25 And so the last frontier for the masturbation
12:30 and the pornography was going to be in my mind.
12:32 Well, but it sounds like you're suggesting here that
12:37 you have no control over dreams or is that true that...
12:42 It seems like when we go to bed and we start dreaming,
12:45 there are things that come in and you just wonder,
12:48 "Where in the world did that come from?"
12:50 I haven't seen this picture or this incident
12:54 since I was a child or I don't even know
12:57 where that came from.
12:59 I don't even know who that person
13:00 is that is in that dream.
13:02 So it seems to me like
13:04 that we don't have control over dreams.
13:06 I'm being the advocate here.
13:09 Do we have control over our dreams?
13:11 What do you think?
13:13 Well, Ron, I totally agreed with what you said.
13:16 For several months during that time
13:18 thinking I can't control this.
13:21 And it started to really ache on my heart that,
13:23 that can't be from God.
13:24 I knew that it couldn't be from God.
13:26 And as I started to explore with God,
13:28 why I was having these dreams
13:30 and why I was having them so frequently
13:31 when I gotten the victory over the physical act,
13:34 then what happened is,
13:36 I believe that God started to reveal to me
13:38 that I could actually have access
13:40 and some control in my dreams.
13:42 But at first, I totally felt absolutely out of control.
13:45 As I enlisted these men
13:46 that I was having this support group with,
13:49 as I enlisted their help,
13:50 you know, what was incredible is,
13:52 not only were they affirming me and supporting me
13:56 and they weren't judging me or ridiculing me.
14:00 What they were doing is like, Mike, we're struggling,
14:02 you're struggling, we're lifting you up.
14:05 So what was so fantastic about that, Ron, for me is,
14:08 is number one, I was getting affirmation from men
14:10 which was healing in itself.
14:11 And then number two is, I was getting two men
14:14 that were willing to pray for me
14:15 that was actually sending what I think is an arsenal of,
14:19 of angels to assist me in this process of overcoming.
14:21 So you needed divine intervention
14:24 in relation to these dreams because you were recognizing
14:28 that this is not just a fluke, right?
14:31 This is not just dreams that are brought about
14:35 by incidents in the day or thoughts
14:37 that I have had during the day.
14:39 It sounds to me like what you're saying is,
14:41 there was a definite spiritual attack going on here.
14:44 Is that correct? Yes. Yes. Right.
14:46 And because of the nature of the dream
14:48 being homoerotic or sexual at all,
14:51 I realized quickly that, that can't be from God.
14:54 And then I wondered, well, how is that a Satan
14:56 has access to my dreams?
14:58 And then of course I realize, again that the last frontier
15:00 is the mind or sin originates in the mind
15:03 because the Bible talks about that when sin is conceived,
15:06 you know, that means before it's actually actual,
15:09 you know, activated.
15:10 So I realize then that I was actually
15:13 fighting demonic forces in my dreams.
15:16 Oh, this is amazing how Satan can invade the privacy
15:21 of our bed in our night sleep and can work.
15:27 That guy never takes a break, does he?
15:29 I mean he never takes a nap.
15:32 While we're napping, he's saying,
15:34 I'm going to get in here.
15:35 I can work on this man even while he's sleeping,
15:38 isn't that amazing that he does that, so...
15:43 And we might question,
15:44 what right does he have to do that?
15:46 I'm a Christian.
15:47 I have professed to and I have accepted
15:49 Jesus Christ as my savior.
15:52 I have renounced my old life.
15:55 I have victory in my life in these areas.
15:58 What right does Satan have to invade my home,
16:02 my mind, my bed while I'm sleeping?
16:06 Does he have that right and if he does,
16:08 how does he get that right?
16:10 Right.
16:12 As I was enlisting the help of God in response to,
16:17 you know, my questions about how I was having these dreams.
16:20 What I was led to was that,
16:22 now that I gotten the physical victory over that
16:24 and recognized that process of taking temptation
16:27 and surrendering up to the Lord.
16:30 What I started to realize is the Holy Spirit was,
16:33 was encouraging me if you would to surrender
16:37 everything at night before I went to sleep.
16:39 As a matter of fact even while I was working
16:41 with the other guys in our support group,
16:43 you know, it became clear to me
16:45 that at night before I went to bed,
16:46 I started to get panic attacks about going to sleep for fear
16:49 that again that I would have these dreams.
16:52 And also to have to confess to my friends
16:54 that yes, I had, you know,
16:56 one, two, three of them the night before.
16:58 So at night when I would go to bed,
17:00 I would start praying and I would ask the Lord
17:02 to show me anything that would have
17:06 any influence to give Satan a foothold
17:08 if you would in my subconscious.
17:10 So in essence you were understanding
17:14 that perhaps you were giving Satan permission
17:18 by something you had done
17:19 during the day or viewed during the day
17:22 or thought about or talked about
17:23 during the day, is that correct?
17:25 Right. So...
17:26 And you wanted the Lord to show you
17:27 so you could, could make a mends
17:32 or you could put a stop to that?
17:34 Well, as I started praying and asking the Holy Spirit
17:37 to show me or to reveal to me
17:39 anything that I may have indulged in that day
17:41 that would give Satan a foothold
17:42 in my dreams, in my sleep.
17:45 What happened is the Holy Spirit
17:47 would start to reveal to me things that I may have
17:49 lingered at or watched during the day, things,
17:53 not pornography on the internet
17:54 but you know, just anything that
17:57 I would have indulged in or remembered an old thought
18:00 or a memory that wasn't surrendered up.
18:02 And so as I did that, I was able to,
18:06 you know, ask for forgiveness for that
18:08 and repent of what I had seen or what I've thought of her,
18:10 when I was lingering in.
18:12 And so as I was able to do that,
18:13 I started to gain victory over the homoerotic dreams
18:18 and I started to, you know, have a full night sleep
18:21 without any invasion of homoerotic dreams.
18:24 So you have prayed before going to bed
18:26 that the Lord would protect you from that
18:28 and hold back the forces of evil,
18:30 perhaps maybe give you
18:32 inspiring uplifting dreams instead,
18:34 this type of thing or what?
18:36 Ron, I'm so glad that you, that you went down that angle
18:40 because one other things that I really enjoy,
18:43 you know, I was used to having
18:45 one or more illicit situations in a week.
18:49 And you know, the thought of going
18:51 without sex or whatever, for me that was like monumental
18:54 when I got the victory over that.
18:56 And so for the last 12 years, you know, I've lived alone,
18:59 I've slept alone and the beautiful part is that
19:02 God is so real to me in the evening.
19:05 The last thing I talk to
19:06 or the last person I talk to is Jesus.
19:08 And the first person in the morning
19:10 I speak to is Jesus.
19:12 And what's so beautiful
19:13 is several times through the night,
19:14 you know, I'll wake up for some reason or whatever
19:17 and I still find myself talking with Jesus
19:19 and I've even told Him.
19:20 I say, Lord, if I never have
19:22 another relationship again I'm okay.
19:25 If I don't have someone to hold me,
19:27 if I don't have someone special in my life again
19:29 I'll be all right as long as I have You.
19:32 And that's been a sustaining strength for me.
19:36 But what's even more awesome
19:38 is that there are times in my sleep...
19:41 There was one night that I had woken up
19:43 and it was about 3 o'clock in the morning
19:45 and there was an image of a woman in my mind
19:48 and her name came to me.
19:49 And I'm laying there and I'm thinking
19:51 why am I awake at 2:30 in the morning?
19:53 Why is this woman's face,
19:55 you know, why can't I see her exact face and her name?
19:59 And I started dialoguing with God.
20:00 I said, Lord, do you need me to pray for her?
20:02 Does she need someone to pray for her?
20:04 It wasn't anyone I knew.
20:06 It wasn't anyone that I had ever met before.
20:09 And as I laid there I just thought,
20:10 well, it wouldn't hurt to pray for her anyway.
20:12 And for 20 minutes I just prayed.
20:14 Lord, you know what the issue is, You know what she needs.
20:16 And then of course after about 20 minutes of praying
20:19 for this woman, I fell asleep.
20:20 And the next morning I woke up,
20:22 I couldn't remember what she look like,
20:23 I couldn't remember her name or anything else,
20:25 but I felt very confident that God had enlisted me
20:28 to pray for this woman who needed help at that time.
20:30 And that's amazing. Yes.
20:31 And so God gives me these beautiful meditations
20:35 and you know, sometimes the meditations are simple as,
20:40 you know, Ellen White talks about,
20:42 you know, how we should spend a thoughtful hour every day
20:45 contemplating about the cross.
20:46 And so I'll ask, after my devotions
20:48 I'll say, Lord, I'm gonna open up my mind
20:50 to receive anything that, you know,
20:52 that You want to communicate to me
20:53 because most of the time I do all the talking.
20:55 You know, so I'll tell God what I need.
20:57 I'll tell Him what's going on and I'll tell Him
20:59 you know, that He has to help me in all this stuff.
21:01 And so I thought, well, a two way conversation,
21:04 you know, gives the other person an opportunity to speak.
21:06 You have to let God get a word
21:07 in X Y's once in a while, right?
21:09 That's right. That's right.
21:10 That's a private joke. Yeah. So anyway...
21:12 But we're serious. Yes.
21:14 So as I was, as I was asking for the Lord
21:18 to just kind of give me insights or whatever.
21:20 I was thinking about the cross,
21:21 my mind kept running to my nephew
21:23 who is about six years old
21:25 and he was just running through a field
21:26 and I could see the wind, you know, blowing his hair.
21:28 And I said, oh, I'm sorry, Lord, I got distracted.
21:30 Three times I went back to my nephew
21:33 just running up this hill and again I would apologize
21:36 and say, Lord, I'm coming back, you know,
21:38 and I would try to think about,
21:39 you know, the scenes of the cross.
21:41 And then finally I just let it roll,
21:43 I saw my nephew running through this field,
21:45 kind of like sound of music,
21:47 you know, up this beautiful hill
21:48 and the sky is blue and the grass is green.
21:51 And what he did is my nephew with his big smile on his face
21:54 ran into the arms of Jesus and I could see Jesus
21:57 just kind of pick him up and throwing around
21:58 and I realized that, that was
22:00 something that God was trying to give me.
22:02 And I get those all the time and again maybe it's,
22:05 you know, because I'm a hairdresser
22:07 and I'm just so far out of there,
22:08 but He really does affirm me in meditation and in dreams.
22:12 And so I recognize that this was demonic warfare going on.
22:16 Well, this leads me to another question.
22:18 I'm really curious about this
22:19 because you pray before you go to sleep
22:22 that the Lord will protect you, give you good thoughts
22:25 and hold back the forces of evil--
22:27 You've been awaken during the night.
22:28 But, Ron, that wasn't enough.
22:30 I couldn't just ask Him to give me a good night sleep,
22:33 that wasn't enough.
22:34 I had to be specific and I had to ask him
22:37 to reveal to me anything that I might have,
22:40 have looked at or indulged in
22:43 that would allow Satan a foothold in my dreams.
22:45 So I really want to specify
22:47 that this was a specific prayer.
22:49 Right. Very specific.
22:50 But then also during the night sometimes you would be awakened
22:53 and inspired to pray for someone.
22:55 Yeah. But my question is this.
22:57 During the night when you're having some,
23:00 when you were having some of these dreams
23:02 brought on by Satan himself.
23:05 Did you ever...
23:06 In the dream itself reach out to the Lord
23:09 and pray for deliverance and for help?
23:11 I'm real curious about that?
23:12 Yes.
23:14 As a matter of fact, I came face to face
23:16 with Satan himself one night.
23:19 It was a dream that opened up and again I was so steeped in,
23:24 you know, sexual activity in my 20s and 30s.
23:27 And so in the dream, I'm in a illicit situation
23:30 and I had the wherewithal to turn it away.
23:34 And so as I'm coming through this room in this dream,
23:37 there's a man who is laying on this mattress
23:41 and all I want is out of the room.
23:42 And the man was not attractive to me,
23:44 but as he started engaging in a conversation I felt safe
23:47 because I wasn't attracted to him
23:49 that I started this conversation.
23:50 So what happens is, as he's talking
23:52 he comes towards me
23:54 and he's kind of blocking my way
23:55 from getting out of the door.
23:57 And again, remember this is a dream
23:58 but as he came closer and closer it was like,
24:02 you know, I could see his face and I could see his,
24:04 you know, skin and he started
24:06 to wear down my defenses.
24:08 And as he got really close,
24:10 I knew that it was about to get,
24:11 you know, intimate and as he was about
24:14 two inches from my face, I came to my senses
24:16 and I said, no, I don't want this.
24:19 And instantly that beautiful face of that person
24:23 turned into Satan himself with absolute disgust for me.
24:27 And having that two inches from your face
24:29 and to see the face of Satan himself,
24:32 absolutely bent on my destruction.
24:35 I woke up of course in a sweat
24:37 and realized that I was actually coming face to face
24:40 with Satan himself in my dreams.
24:41 One other dream that I had is one night in my dream,
24:46 all of a sudden I couldn't breath
24:47 as I'm dreaming, you know, in my dream I couldn't inhale,
24:50 I couldn't exhale, there was a tightness around my chest
24:53 from the inside and the out.
24:55 And instantly of course, it woke me up.
24:57 And as I'm awake now I realized that,
24:59 that was my conscious, that was my reality
25:02 that I couldn't take a breath in or not.
25:04 And I instantly remembered to call on, on my Savior,
25:07 but his name wouldn't come into my mind.
25:10 Satan was even blocking his name from coming in my mind.
25:12 And as I'm laying there in panic thinking
25:15 if I can't remember Jesus' name,
25:16 how's He gonna help me?
25:17 And all I remember was the demoniac
25:20 who couldn't even speak Jesus name or his own words.
25:23 And all I did is in my subconscious I said,
25:24 Lord, you know who you are.
25:26 I can't remember your name, save me.
25:28 And instantly the pressure was off my chest,
25:31 I was able to breathe naturally
25:33 and the beautiful name of Jesus came right into my mind
25:36 and I laid there and sang every song
25:38 that I could think of that had Jesus name in it
25:41 until I fell asleep again.
25:42 Well, that's really powerful.
25:44 It's amazing that we can reach out to Jesus
25:47 even in our dreams.
25:48 He is not willing that any should perish.
25:50 But what I'm seeing from this is,
25:52 Satan is not willing that any should be saved.
25:55 Satan is hell-bent upon keeping the homo saps,
25:59 the homosexual in his grasp.
26:02 I know I was almost killed in the process
26:04 of coming out of that, that lifestyle myself.
26:07 So I know personally like you,
26:09 Satan will do anything to keep us in his grasp.
26:14 He doesn't, if he can't keep us there by allurement,
26:17 by enticement, by deception,
26:21 by winning us to him in these ways,
26:24 then he will turn to violence or invasive dreams,
26:28 you know, such as we're talking about here today.
26:33 In a nutshell because we just have a moment left.
26:36 Can you just give us two or three points
26:38 on how we can keep Satan out of our dreams?
26:42 It will be like a recap. Sure. Absolutely.
26:45 To take stock and take inventory
26:47 of the events that have happened during the day
26:49 and to ask the Holy Spirit to come in and convict you
26:53 and to show you literally the things
26:56 that need to be surrendered at the cross.
26:57 And as you do that, definitely learn the intimacy
27:02 that Jesus wants to have with each one of us.
27:04 Learn to tell Him about the nuances of your day.
27:06 He cares about the little things
27:08 and as well as the big in.
27:09 So as I learned to enjoy the intimacy of Jesus,
27:14 you know, the beauty is that
27:16 He can make hays more and more with us.
27:17 Amen.
27:19 We truly are involved daily in spiritual warfare.
27:23 The forces of evil working on us and in us,
27:27 the forces of God working in us and for us.
27:31 There is a battle for the soul.
27:33 There is, God out of love for us,
27:36 wanting us for all eternity
27:38 and Satan out of hatred for God.
27:41 He doesn't want us because he loves us.
27:43 He wants us because he hates God.
27:46 We want to thank you
27:47 for joining us today on Pure Choices.
27:51 And may God help you everyday make pure choices.


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